I've Lost My Old Favourite Voice
i try everything but it still doen't works..infact in got worse..my last post i say that i was nervous after watchin all the vidoe of the singapore idol finalist n i felt the pain that they r goin..den i oso add that i wont change my mind about not joinin the singapore idol jus because i felt their pain n i sing every 2 practice n 2 make my voice better then b4.but NO..it got worse..the more i practice singin..the worse i sound..my voice changes..i dont sound good anymore..i sound like..i dunno wat i sound i like..but its not the same @ all..i wan my voice back..all of my friends say that i have a very nice voice..n that was my old voise..with my new voice that i've gotten from recoverin from a very bad sore throut..i sound bad..i wa my old voice back..i really do..when next year begins i have 2 prepare because i am counting down till the time that i will join a really big competition..everyone will know me..but will i even survive the competition..if i realli wana know..i have 2 realy prepare myself n GET MY VOICE BACK!!!!
Im Afraid..but I WONT HOLD BACK
after i've watch all the Singapore Idol contestant that have got through the audition the round...i started 2 feel really scared n the more i watch it..the afraid i felt...i've watch all the show.."the Piano Show"..."The Wild Card Show".."The Theater Show"...all of them i started 2 feel lyk i have BUTTERFILES in my stomach..especially after ROSALINA was voted afetr she had confested that she doesnt have the x-factor that an idol or singer should have..slim n all that other stuff..im jus like her..im FAT..i dont n x-factor..i actually felt her PAIN because im us like her...we r in the same house..but no matter..this is my dream..this is my destiny..this is my passion..no matter waateva comes in my way..i'll try my very best 2 destroy it..i wana come out of the rock im hidin under after all these years...i wana show the people out there who knows me.or dun kno me..wat FARHANAH is really made off..im not that FAT n SHY gal..nope..NO MORE..the FARHANAH u once kno has gone..now the one that u c b4 ur very eyes is..the new improve FARHANAH...n I WONT HOLD BACK...
I Meet Them
i did went back 2 skool 2 do my CCA(Co-Corriculumn Activity)..for 4 hrs..It start @ 10am n ended @ 2 pm..im a librarian..i need 2 do stock chekin..its not easy doin it..mus c numbers n alphabets dat tallies da book and aslo bar code number so dat when dey scan..dey won't scan da wrong book..if da book not found..its considered as Lost Book(s) so far quite a number of books founds but most of it..NOT..although its a taugh job but its fun..fun as in dat i could meet my long time no c frens..Vivian n Priya..dey seem pretty happy n we get 2 talk about a whole lot of things dat we didnt talk durin da holiday..we joke..we clean the fish tank..we gossip about da movie "Shutter"..dey say da story dat i told dem is very groosem n scary...well..it true though..i eat lunch with Vivian n we got 2 joke 2gether..n i also got 2 meet my PE teacher..Mr Vilau..he say dat he wont b in my skool from next..he goin 2 b transfer 2 other skool..Commonwealth Secondary School..i hope he will enjoy it dere..i did wish him good luck in his new skool..i wonder will he still b a PE teacher..a normal class teacher..a DM(Discipline Master)..or a principle..hmm..I WONDER..but i don care as long as i have my admired teacher..he look like ALF from NORTH..but look ALF better la..but both look great..i think i wont b splittin up wif Soul Sistaz after all..after 2day its seem lyk we don wana b apart..but i will go on Solo 4 a while..since we r goin 2 different class next year..so y not i go on solo..its jus 4 while..i mean its onli 4 a few hours..its not dat either of us will b tranfer 2 other skool...jus 2 other classes..i think i cud survive without dem 4 dat few hours...
SCARY MOVIE.....
This is sooo not right..i kept on 4getin my username n i have 2 create a whole new 1 again..HAIZ..but no matter hey da movie "Shutter"super scary..my mind hurt bcos i start 2 imagine things..its not really a ghost story its a horror plus a love story but most horror..da guy of this dead gal broke up with her bcos his frens told him 2 do..so she actualli cried 4 help but he doesnt seems 2 care n he even folow wat his "buddies" said..he was told 2 take her picture of her after shes been rape by them..after dat he broke up with her..she threaten him dat she wud cut her wrist if he doesnt gave her n explanation 4 y he broke up with her..but he didnt believe dat she wud do such a thing..he was shock to c her @ his house 1 after skool with a bruised wrist n a kinfe in her hand..he soon left her..he felt so depressed dat she hurt herself more..she hurt her hand with da blade of da knife n was send 2 the hospital..after a fews days..doctor say dat she was fine n wud b able 2 go home but b4 da day came..she commited suicide by jumping off the hospital roof n died..but da guy didnt kno about this bcos he hasnt seen her the last time he saw her n that was @ his house..strange thigs happen 2 him..he work s a photographer after dat..da picture dat he took all look really strange..n even stranger things happen..he see a doctor bcos he had hurt his neck in n accident..while checkin his weight..he nurse was reall in shock when he saw dat he weigh 120kg..dat is realli heavy 2 a skinny guy like him..but no1 kno da real reason till 1 faithful day..he n his"buddies"r still 2gether after such long years n the all died in the same way..they died by jumpin off a building..it was a curse that was cast onto them by the gal dat they rape while they r still in skool..the gal's spirit neva rest in peace..even after when she was burried..mayb the reason is dat she wanted 2 take revenge on da person dat had hurt her b4..no 1 knows da real reason..same goes with her ex-boyfren..da 1st attempt of commitin suicide he didnt died..the 2nd attempt still he didnt died..this time da gal took a picture of her sittin on his shoulder n making him fall of through the window..the 1st attempt he saw her spirit chasin him..while climbim down his fire escape..he slip n fall bcos he was in a shock when he saw her chasing him down the fire escape n saw her horried face in front of him..da show ended with him in hospital n with da dead gal sittin on his shoulder still..an old guy in this story say this..those things cum 2 u when they u n them r related in some ways..mayb u r their son..daughter..cousion..or even lover..like in this story..da gal is related 2 him by being his lover..this is jus a summary..but watch it..its more than wat its been written here..i believe wat that old man in the story said..i also belive dat they r around us bcos they hav unfinished business dat they didnt manage 2 complete wihile they're alive n dat depens..is it a good thing or a bad thing...n also dat they r protectin us in some ways..or they r askin sumthing frm us dat r still alive..example 2 tell their love 1 dat they're gone or 2 help them search 4 somethin dat they have lost 2 make them rest in peace..but no matter the onli thing that i kno is that they r all around us..n they will always b..keep in mind that mayb 1 of da days we r goin 2 b jus like them..
